I wrote this blog not to brag about dating two women. I'm writing this blog to express feelings of love, fear,and trust most men don't even want to admit.I would said I've been with at last count 75 different women not all sexual but all emotion. Yet i would say I have only loved one. Out of the gate a lot of people would say you're "THE MAN". Having different relationship has harmed me more than any sickness or family death has every caused me. I have hurt so many women and i saw the pain and stress so to protect my self i would need a relationship instead i would keep them around as if i was building a bunker and they were my survival kits kit I hate to sound like an emotional man, but that's me i am in touch with my feeling and for years I have covered them.
But 75 is a lot some people might say you like the chase. than I would say. That's not it,its just that simply. Most times i would just be a nice guy, a gentleman something must guys are afraid to be. And women would just melt.
So what is It????? Is it Love???? I'm the lost one. I'm the man with everything but I still have nothing the bible says a man who finds a wife finds a good thing.. Not a man who finds women. So to end my first blog i realized I lost the only Woman I have ever Truly Love. Not because of lust not because of the chase. But it is the inability and fear to show the world that i was in LOVE....
